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I seriously just want to pour my heart out as I am beyond frustrated.

I wish I could say everything to you. No, actually I can, but fo some reason I chose not to. 

My heart is hurting. If you have NOT noticed. Thats the thing, You havent noticed anything lately. 

I feel like I am pestering you from wanting to talk to you.

I don't know if you get it. I don't think you do, and If I go off on you, we might eun into an argument. I don't want that. I never want that.

Do you see where Im coming from with all these? No? Well here.

- Do you remember before we saw each other, to the day that we did? and days before that?  i hope you do..

You made me the happiest girl ib the world. You made me feel wanted, loved and very much appreciated. 

From day one, all I wanted was your honesty and time.

And often, we'd get into arguments because you made me feel like I was taken for granted when you decided to deprive me of your attention.

I don't mean to point fingers but you know that was the problem.

All that were washed away when we saw each other. I felt so safe, secure, loved. I did not have to worry about a damn thing. We've made a billion compromises to make us stronger until the end of time. And Im glad we have made adjustments. 

I do know that you're going through tough times at home and you feel like you have so much on your plate. You tried to share the plate with me and I am honestly thankful for that. I know it wasnt easy for you to open up. 

I also know that you try to divert your attention to going out or hanging out with friends or just trying to occupy yourself during your alone time. 

I do sometimes get all extra craving for your attention at times you do not feel like talking. Do know that I am trying to understand. Just be patient. Please? 

So then I suck it up and wait until you come around.

You do. You come around.

But whats weird? 

I do not feel that you feel the same.

I dont know. Maybe because youre just too worried about other things to even care about what it is with us right now. And I am not offended. Those come first. I know that.

Its just that I used feel wanted. I used to feel the eagerness to talk to me. The "i miss you i cant live without you talk to me baby " feeling. 

I am not saying for us to talk 24/7 , but I dont know.

It just hurts. 

This hurts.

I feel like im begging for time.

I dont want to. 

I dont even want to discuss this with you because I want you to do it at your own will.

I dont even bother and try to call you because I feel like if I call you, I will feel a tension and there would just be complete silence. 

I dont like that either.

Its different when you call me and its silent as to when I do and its quiet.

I dont want to pick fights either.

Are you tired? Are you tired of picking fights with me?

I feel like if I go off on you right now, youd reply the next day like nothing happened, or just read it off and not say a thing.

I dont know.

Were supposed to be better than this. Come on. 

I hate this.

All I wanted then and now hasn't changed.

I crave for your attention. That is all.

I seriously just want to pour my heart out as I am beyond frustrated.

I wish I could say everything to you. No, actually I can, but fo some reason I chose not to. 

My heart is hurting. If you have NOT noticed. Thats the thing, You havent noticed anything lately. 

I feel like I am pestering you from wanting to talk to you.

I don't know if you get it. I don't think you do, and If I go off on you, we might eun into an argument. I don't want that. I never want that.

Do you see where Im coming from with all these? No? Well here.

- Do you remember before we saw each other, to the day that we did? and days before that?  i hope you do..

You made me the happiest girl ib the world. You made me feel wanted, loved and very much appreciated. 

From day one, all I wanted was your honesty and time.

And often, we'd get into arguments because you made me feel like I was taken for granted when you decided to deprive me of your attention.

I don't mean to point fingers but you know that was the problem.

All that were washed away when we saw each other. I felt so safe, secure, loved. I did not have to worry about a damn thing. We've made a billion compromises to make us stronger until the end of time. And Im glad we have made adjustments. 

I do know that you're going through tough times at home and you feel like you have so much on your plate. You tried to share the plate with me and I am honestly thankful for that. I know it wasnt easy for you to open up. 

I also know that you try to divert your attention to going out or hanging out with friends or just trying to occupy yourself during your alone time. 

I do sometimes get all extra craving for your attention at times you do not feel like talking. Do know that I am trying to understand. Just be patient. Please? 

So then I suck it up and wait until you come around.

You do. You come around.

But whats weird? 

I do not feel that you feel the same.

I dont know. Maybe because youre just too worried about other things to even care about what it is with us right now. And I am not offended. Those come first. I know that.

Its just that I used feel wanted. I used to feel the eagerness to talk to me. The "i miss you i cant live without you talk to me baby " feeling. 

I am not saying for us to talk 24/7 , but I dont know.

It just hurts. 

This hurts.

I feel like im begging for time.

I dont want to. 

I dont even want to discuss this with you because I want you to do it at your own will.

I dont even bother and try to call you because I feel like if I call you, I will feel a tension and there would just be complete silence. 

I dont like that either.

Its different when you call me and its silent as to when I do and its quiet.

I dont want to pick fights either.

Are you tired? Are you tired of picking fights with me?

I feel like if I go off on you right now, youd reply the next day like nothing happened, or just read it off and not say a thing.

I dont know.

Were supposed to be better than this. Come on. 

I hate this.

All I wanted then and now hasn't changed.

I crave for your attention. That is all.